Part 2 Chapter 49 - Isolation (1)
Sul is at home, in a horribly confused state. She sees the money her father gave her before and remembers how proud her father was. He was always proud of her and she tells herself that had to work extremely hard because she wasn't a genius, and she was the happiest when people acknowledged her hard work. But now, she thinks she's become too used to receiving things from Jung. She was at first very uncomfortable with his kindness, but she really couldn't refuse it. At that moment, a "inner" Sul emerges, and tells her that she probably enjoyed his generosity deep inside. She wonders if she really just put up an act, pretending to not want the gifts from Jung. But she thinks the reason she could do such a thing was because Jung's eyes seemed so kind and warm compared to his cold stare from the past.
She, however, thinks that this time, he acted for his own benefit. She remembers how he said that it was a last resort for him. Sul realizes that she really can't continue to be angry at him, because ultimately, it did help Sul in a way. She does regret getting so angry now. She decides to organize her thoughts and contact him later.
At the English tutoring center, a male student asks if something happened to "Thomas," because he is absent. Sul replies that she doesn't know. Some students murmur about how they saw Thomas and another guy fight over Sul. Sul can't hear any of this. Just then, Sung Eun arrives, talking to her older boyfriend. Some students mumbled about how she is dating an old man. Sung Eun seems to be in a good mood talking to her boyfriend on the phone, and Sul notices this. She then turns to Sung Eun for advice on how to work things out with her boyfriend after a fight. She explains that they got in a fight over her boyfriend helping her out. Sung Eun doesn't understand how this could lead to a fight, but ultimately, Sung Eun replies that she has never gotten into a fight with her boyfriend. She still decides to give advice to Sul about how to not get into a fight. They head to the store next door first of all.
As they walk down the hall, Sul asks if Sung Eun knows why Thomas is absent. Sung Eun doesn't know either, and replies that if Sul doesn't know, there's no way for Sung Eun to now either. Sul wonders if she sounded kind of rude. Sung Eun then interrupts, and tells Sul that she has never dated an "instructor" nor does she know friends who have dated an "instructor," so she can't give much advice on that. Sul is confused. Sul thinks the entire tutoring center has been feeling strange and awkward lately. Sul turns her attention to Sung Eun. She is envious of the fact that Sung Eun seems so happy with her boyfriend all the time. She wonders how she can come to fully trust another person when the two have been raised up in entirely different environments, have different interests, and have different ideals.
At the volunteer center, the young disabled girl Sul is taking care of (Ah Reum) gets angry and scratches Sul's face. She seems angry, and Sul offers to do something other than memorizing numbers. She suggests reading a book, but Ah Reum throws a tantrum, mumbling "Unni, no ----" * Sul apologizes for continuously doing numbers with her. Ah Reum just continusouly mumbles "I don't like unni." Sul offers to go get some snacks, but Ah Reum won't stop yelling.
During break, Sul is extremely tired out. She also notices that Jung isn't here, and that this volunteer job is also something that Jung has introduced her to. Just then, her mother calls. As Sul tries to talk, her mother cuts her off, telling her that she should stop by the restaurant right after volunteer work. She continues: "Why don't you come out nowadays? Don't you know that work is extremely busy? I haven't got a proper part-timer yet. You should help out as a daughter. What are you doing? Your expensive tuition doesn't grow on trees, you know. When you have time - "
Sul snaps, and yells: "Is that all you have to say?! When mom calls me, all you have to talk about is the scholarship, the store, or the fact that dad is angry againt! Is that really all you have to say to me? Really? That's why I can only think about those stuff as well! Don't I do enough already? What more do I have to concern myself with now? I already have so much to think about here! Work hard on your studies... Is your job going okay?... Work hard, my daughter... Can't you just tell me that..."
Her mother apologizes saying that she was just so busy. She asks Sul to don't take it too much to heart. She was just so used to Sul doing everything so well by herself.
As Sul walks down the street, she thinks about how nowadays, she just feels like a regretful idiot no matter what she does. As she walks, she feels that the neighborhood has gotten even creepier. She stops to tie her shoe, and drops a coin.
Just then, the grandson of the landlady appears in front of her. He makes friendly comments like, "It's really dark in the neighborhood, right? Here's your coin." He offers to drop her off, but she leaves, saying that her house is just nearby. She was extremely surprised by his sudden appearance.
Just then, she hears the grandson sing the Korean pop song "Kissing You" by Girls' Generation. Long time ago, Sul used to walk down the dark alleyways while singing this song to drive the fear away. She suddenly starts running in fear, and the grandson snickers.
She tries to tell herself that she's just being paranoid and that the song is a very popular well-known song. But she still feels extremely scared.
She then hears a "Hey!" behind her as she walks. She tries to walk faster, but the figure approaches her quickly. She screams, and the figure yells: "Dog fur! What are you doing?"
*I'm not sure if Ah Reum is saying "Unni, no" or "I don't like unni."
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